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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 28, 2009 18:01:01 GMT -8
Flight was upset with herself. It was all her fault, wasn't it? Would Ryuu blame her...? She hadn't mentioned the fact that werewolves had trouble having children, that there was a large possibility of a miscarriage, infant death and such. It was rare for a werewolf to have a child. Maybe she had thought that things would be different, since Ryuu was part vampire. Shade had been able to carry two children as a werewolf. So why couldn't she do it?
More guilt. Why? Why did she have to lose the child? It was upsetting, sad. It hurt her more then she ever thought it could.
Swallowing hard she looked up at the apartment building. It loomed over her, making her feel so small and weak. She'd never felt like this. This was so much harder then telling Ryuu she was pregnant. That was actually a happy moment. But this... It was just bad. Saddening...
The pack leader pushed some hair away from her face rather nervously on her way up to Ryuu's apartment. Once there, she took a deep breath, and knocked. Please, don't cry, just don't cry and stay calm. She thought to herself. He'll understand... The girl continued. But what if he doesn't? She tried not to think about this, but it was still there...
((I wanted to start it... XD))
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Post by Platinum on Oct 28, 2009 18:15:45 GMT -8
((XD Kay.))
Ryuu got up from his beed and sauntered over to the door, where he opened it up and looked down lazily.
"Oh- hey Suki. You should know by now that you don't have to kno- What's wrong?" He instantly changed subjects, the happy look on his face melting away when he saw heres. He was about to break down and cry from the expression on her face.
"Suki... what's wrong? Tell me that there's nothing wrong." Ryuu was an incrediably nervous man her cracked under any kind of pressure. He was starting to worry tremendously, all sorts of bad things that could have happened to her running through his brain.
But the possiblity of a miscarrage wasn't one.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 28, 2009 18:29:52 GMT -8
((Jeez, his reaction made me want to cry. D8 XD But seriously... My eyes started to water... Must be in a sensitive mood... Or I'm REALLY in character... This post should be awesome then! 8DDD))
Suki felt like she had a lump in her throat, and if she tried to talk she would just end up crying. So she looked down and swallowed hard once again. She bit her lip before walking into the room. The girl, despite her age that's how she felt right now, turned slightly to look back at him. Her head still lowered. "I... I'm fine but..." She paused unsure how to go on.
"The baby's not..." Just, don't cry Suki. She thought. But it was hard. "I lost the baby..." She mumbled. "A miscarriage." She finally choked out. Still looking down she closed her eyes tightly. Still attempting not to cry. It wasn't because she didn't want him to see her cry, it was because she hated being like this. She felt weak, that's not the werewolf way.
"I'm sorry..." She mumbled; that lump still in her throat.
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 17:09:18 GMT -8
((XDDDD))
Ryuu himself almost cried. He wrapped the small girl into a rib-crushing hug and layed his head on her shoulder, biting his lip to keep from crying.
"Ssh. Ssh... Don't say that." He told her. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry..." He told her softly, his voice wavering. "Don't cry..." He was saing this so maybe if she didn't cry he wouldn't...
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 17:20:23 GMT -8
Suki was already a little shaky. But the fact that Ryuu looked as though he was about to cry as well didn't help. She leaned her head against his shoulder as he had hers. The girl put her arms around him as well and kept her eyes hidden with his shoulder. "It's not your fault..." She mumbled into his shirt.
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 17:31:28 GMT -8
Ryuu rubbed her back.
"I know." He said to her. He took in a deep breath.
"Ma-maybe we could try again." He said, trying to make things seem less... sad. "And this isn't your fault, either..."
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 17:38:16 GMT -8
"But it is... It's hard for werewolves to even have children." She replied, voice still muffled be cause she hadn't removed her head from his shoulder. Suki pulled her arms back and just leaned against him. She felt like this was all her fault. It couldn't really be Ryuu's anyway. Maybe she was just too wrapped up in thinking it was her fault to think that maybe it wasn't anyone's.
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 17:42:55 GMT -8
Ryuu was no confused.
"But... Shade... she had two kids..." He said. "Why should you be any different?" He asked, not understanding the world and how it worked at this moment. Why couldn't Suki have children?
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 17:55:51 GMT -8
Suki shook her head. She didn't know why it was like that. Why she couldn't have children. Or, maybe she could, just... With a few miscarriages. But she really didn't want to go through another. Then again, maybe it would be easier... For some reason, she didn't think so.
"Guess Shade was lucky like that." She mumbled.
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 18:00:12 GMT -8
Ryuu sighed.
"I'm sorry this happened to us, Suki." He said to her. "I wish I could make it better. And the fact that I can't hurts me." He admitted to her. "I want to help you but I can't." He now pulled awya from her and sat down. He looked even m ore tired then he normally did now.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 18:18:01 GMT -8
((I'm confused about that one part. xP 'And the fact that I can't hurts me.' Did you just miss help...?))
Suki watched him then looked down; brushing at her eyes. She felt rather helpless. Helpless because she couldn't do anything about it either.
Examining him for a moment she then felt rather selfish. She had believed it truly was her fault, and miserable because of it. Then she had over looked how Ryuu felt. Now she just felt worse, more guilty. But she attempted to act more... Happy? Or to just have a better... Mood. She walked over and sat down next to him, slipping her shoes off and pulling her legs up onto the bed.
"I... I still want to be with you, and marry you... If you still want to..." She mumbled, a little unsure. Then she looked back over at the tired man. He was always looking tired. Maybe she was just being bothersome...
((I was thinking maybe she gets pregnant again, but this time doesn't tell him, and like, leaves the city. Because she's positive she's going to have a miscarriage again. Except she doesn't this time... Um... Yeah... I have it all thought up in my head. XD Does the basic idea get across to you? LoL.))
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 18:23:50 GMT -8
((Yeah. I missed the word help. XD And cool idear. ^^))
Ryuu looked over at her and brushed at her cheek with his hand, carressing it.
"I still want you, too." He said to her. "I don't want to live alone anymore. I want you here with me." He said to her.
He looked down.
"You know, you might have had the miscarriage... because of my vampire side. Werewolves and Vampires by nature aren't very compatable..." He mumbled to her.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 18:35:27 GMT -8
((  Yay, idea! XD)) Suki nodded slightly. She had never physically been alone. But she felt better around Ryuu. As though, whatever had gone wrong would be better if she was with him. "I can move in with you. The others will be fine as they are." The woman stated. She shook her head as he said his next statement. "I would think they're more compatible then humans with werewolves... Or even the werewolves with their own kind." She murmured. "It's not your fault. Maybe... Maybe it's no ones fault." She added a little weakly. |
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Post by Platinum on Oct 29, 2009 19:05:23 GMT -8
Ryuu nodded once.
"Yeah, You can move in." He said. "I'll have to make room... but that'll be fine." He smiled slightly.
He paused at her last comment.
"Maybe." He said simply.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 29, 2009 19:12:35 GMT -8
Suki smiled at him. It held a slight sadness, but was still a smile. She leaned forward setting her forehead against his shoulder. "Things will be alright..." The woman murmured softly. Then she looked back up at him. Looking at his eyes. "I love you." She murmured; kissing him on the lips.
((She could, ah, spend the night? XDD))
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Post by Platinum on Oct 30, 2009 5:47:02 GMT -8
((... Sure. XDDD I'm not sure if I'm supposed to find a... um... 'hidden meaning' behind that or not. XDD))
"I love you too." Ryuu told her softly. He leaned down to return the kiss, one hand on her jaw.
"You are all that I ever think about." He said to her.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 30, 2009 5:57:25 GMT -8
((Mm... Probably not in something that subtle... LoL. Though I thought it was kind of obvious. XD))
Suki smiled at him. "I think about a lot of things... But you are the main one." She murmured the reply.
((Meh... xP))
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Post by Platinum on Oct 30, 2009 6:00:40 GMT -8
((Now you're just confusing me. >.< XD You have to remember not to confuse the easily-confused one. XD))
Ryuu could't help but laugh slightly.
"You have a lot of things that you need to take care of." He said. "I don't have much." He said.
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Post by LoneWolf on Oct 30, 2009 6:11:30 GMT -8
((Rotfl, and I thought YOU have the perverted brain. LoL.))
Suki smiled a smile that wasn't so sad anymore. "Glad to know I'm your main priority then." She stated. Jeez, going from crying to smiling, she could only do that around Ryuu.
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Post by Platinum on Oct 30, 2009 6:23:10 GMT -8
((I think I get it now...))
Ryuu laughed again.
"Glad to know I'm on you... top list?" He said a bit jokingly, grinning at her.
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Yay, idea! XD))